This morning started off feeling like some kind of uphill battle.
After receiving some less than desirable news at the start of the weekend, I was chomping at the bit to get the situation resolved. So when Monday rolled around, I was eager for answers and explanations.
I spent the first half of the morning doubting everything I was doing. And not doing. I wanted to work on a project coming up later this month, but couldn’t get myself to focus long enough to put pen to paper or finger to keyboard for that matter. I was feeling less than and uninspired. Unworthy and far from the talented being everyone rates me to be. I fell into a few minutes of comparing myself to others before I broke down in even more tears, disappointed in myself for losing sight of my worth, even if only momentarily. again.
I asked the universe to talk to me. A few moments later I logged into twitter and saw a tweet that brought me to tears. It felt like something I would be writing in the future. The words weren’t my own but felt like I did. Next, I opened my Instagram and after a few short scrolls, saw the exact sentence I used in my conversation with the Universe in a cute, palatable instagram graphic. Bloom where you are planted. A message I have been trying to heed ever since I left New York in August of 2013. Bloom where you are planted. Release the need for perfection and for “things” to be synonymous with chasing your dreams. I am chock full of reasons and excuses why I have to wait to release this piece of work or film that type of video. Waiting for some big “aha” moment to give validation to what it is I’m trying to do. What I’m trying to share.
I started planning content for my blog and youtube channel and ended up watching a few of my favorite ladies to help get myself back on track. Nothing like watching people who inspire you to get a fire restarted.
Sometimes I need to physically remove myself from my home setting to get things done. That’s how I ended up at Oddfellows Café + Bar. Right next to my favorite bookstore in Capitol Hill, the cafe is beautifully simple and the staff are incredibly attentive and kind.
Oddfellows is one of those restaurants that I could totally see a bunch of girlfriends grabbing a drink at. Sitting at one of their tables indoors or even out back in their beautiful garden patio. Once the sun starts setting and the cocktails start flowing, it totally serves as the perfect place to catch a quick drink and snack with friends or if you’re like me, it’s the perfect place to people watch and get some work done.
Not every day is going to be perfect. Sometimes we may have to try a little bit harder just to get through the day, but I believe it is extremely important to recognize when your own behavior is toxic and immediately try to correct it. Whether that be crying it out, repeating affirmations or completely refocusing your energy to get your mind back on track, do what you need to do to be a better you. As cheesy as that sounds, it’s the best piece of advice I can give.
I am setting direct intentions every. single. day to bloom where I am planted. Subtle reminders that I can do whatever it is I set out to do without feeling like I am left behind or to far to start new. There is space for us all.
I ordered the Brown Derby, a bourbon drink with grapefruit and honey. I was surprised by how delicious it was. It contains three of my favorite cocktail ingredients but I’ve never had them in this way. It made me remember that even if it’s “been done before” or even if I feel like there isn’t enough of something, someone is always experiencing me in a new way. You don’t always need things to shine. I went to Oddfellows to get some much needed clarity, the delicious cocktail and life message were a plus.
I also had a glass of prosecco and some very delicious fries. Carbs. Alcohol loves carbs.
What was the last cocktail you had?
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